Lets start with last year's ramadhan, shall we :)
I never really thought I would get along with a stranger like you. Like really get along as if we have been friends for years. A stranger who loves Arctic Monkeys as much as I do & a stranger who supports Arsenal like i do. Its like fate all over. It was nice to always have reasons to see my phone cause i know your text will always be there. I still remember how excited i was when i ran upstairs to my dorm after terawih just to see your texts. And it was so nice to get your berbuka wish like almost every single day tho we are still friends back then.
And i never expected that you will sent me "that" text on first raya. Sumpah i didnt. Last year's ramadhan & raya was the best time of my life. The best i ever had.
Months passes, we have gone through lots of things. The fights, the dates, the exs, those skype calls, viber & everything. We are still together for wow 11 months. Never have i ever thought we would :')
And then this year.
From ramadhan starts, i knew i wont get the best ramadhan like last year's i knew something's coming. You didnt wish the 19th like you always do, well you were having fun in Penang so yea i gotta understand. And then things happened. We were okay but entah la its like something bothering me..i dont know what it is. Did you feel the same?
Well i cant fully blame you. I am not the most perfect or the best girlfriend right, like you said i changed, i didnt appreciate you & stuffs. Maybe its true but maybe its not. I suck at showing people how much i love them and how much i care about them & maybe that is why you think i didnt appreciate you. For all that matters, i appreciate you sayang, i really do. All those sacrifices you made for me, i remember. Everysinglething, i still remember Adib. I didnt realised i changed but you saw me changed. Is that the reason you choose to ignore me? Tapi.. you do know how much i hate being ignored. I loathe it so much. If its true i've changed, why you didnt try to talk to me, fix stuffs and all that. We can always try to solve it out. Why....Why do you have to choose to ignore me.
I know things dah different now. I know we both are busy with college stuffs & everything. I know i tak boleh harap benda akan stay sama je macam you cakap. But aren't we supposed to be there for each other no matter how hard things get, no matter how sucks i screwed up and no matter whats coming through in our way?
I waited for you yesterday, i didnt sleep. I thought things would have settled by last night but then again you choose to ignore me instead of talking to me what you feel.
I dont know what is going on with us anymore.
Anyways, Selamat Hari Raya. I know i dah banyak kali cakap sorry but still its the only thing i could say..Thank you for the wonderful 11 months. Halal kan everything you've paid for me. Belanja makan, cd, ice skate, books and more to be list. Have fun raya & take care.
