People says if you still care for someone, you still wondering if that someone is doing fine or not, what's going on with that someone's life & etc. It shows that you still LOVE that someone.
Dont tell me you're NOT 'cause if you dont love that someone, you takkan kisah with what's going on with that someone's life.
I know. Because i've been there done that. A lot of people around me have experienced that situation. I don't know why am I so eager to know what happened between you two..it's just that i don't want to know about it later on.
Truth hurts, like fucking hurts. But if i found out about it later on i will be more than upset. Devastated, sad and so much more.
I know you still love her, eventho you won't admit it. At least, a part of you still wanted her to be in your life right?
I swear in the name of god, that i dont freaking care if you talk to anyone else. Any girls, i dont mind really. But please for god's sake not your ex-s. Especially the ones that give you so much to remember, the ones that make you so hard to move on. The ones like her.
You craved her name on your wrist with knives, that hurts. I know sebab i pernah sayang someone like that until i tried to kill myself. Almost.
Tell me the truth. Tell me if you really want me in your life. Tell me if you really really love me. Tell me you would do anything to keep us together. Because it has been more than 4 months. I don't want any heartbreaks dah.
This time i can't chill anymore, i can't act like i'm not jealous & stuffs. Because i am. I really am fucking jealous with her.
I dont know what the future holds for both of us. I'll accept everything with all my heart.
Give me time to chill & the truth is i can't sleep if i have problems.
So let me be & let me calm myself down.
